Welcome

Thank you so much for taking the time to visit our family blog. This may be your first visit here, or you may be a friend from across the globe, or family that we have just seen. Who ever you may be, thanks for taking the time to read about our little family, and all we are learning on this adventure the Lord has called us to live! Here you will find, the random thoughts, funny stories, prayer requests, and the journey our family and Jack is on with his battle with Leukemia.

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Oh I love my sweet little Dylan boy... He is such a cutie pie, and he keeps me running around after him. With three teeth, and a fourth on its way, this little rascal is done with baby food, almost altogether. He sees mac n' cheese, he wants it. If his brothers are eating something, so must he! He is also chasing after them all day, joining in the wrestling and tickling, he is a speedster when it comes to getting places. I often loose track of where he is, because he is gone so quickly. And yes, the boy loves to climb the stairs. I have no idea what kind of man he will become, but it is certain God has gifted him in unique ways, and it will be a joy to watch those gifts develop and grow as he gets older. But for now, I am a busy mommy to a rascal of a boy. I love every minute of it.

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.book recommendation.


I have been asked many times, what are you reading these days? Over the past 8 months or so, I have been reading and re-reading and devouring this book. Be Still My Soul by Nancy Guthrie was a gift to me from a dear friend, and what a gift it has been to me. I cannot, simply cannot recommend it enough. It is a collection from 25 different authors on the topic of suffering and pain, with the preface by Guthrie (who lost two children in their infancy).

The writers within the covers of this book have become dear friends to me, many of whom I had never read of and a few I had never heard of, but now feel I can go to at any time and come away refreshed, re-focused, full of faith, and more in love with my God. This book has been a tremendous means of grace to me, and I am so grateful to have been "introduced to the friends" contained within its pages.

I have posted some quotes on facebook that have meant a lot to me as I have been reading it, and as I now am reading through it for the third or fourth time, find that every page has a morsel of truth that can re-direct my wayward thoughts to truth so effectively. Here a few quotes that are a small example of the riches found in this book.

"We are all, in our turns, disposed to think our own trials peculiarly heavy, and our own cases singular. But to them who ask this question we may answer, Yes- there has been sorrow greater than yours. If we conceive of him hanging upon the cross, speaking in this language to us, "Was ever any sorrow like my sorrow?" must not we reply with admiration and gratitude, "No Lord, never was love, never was grief like thine." The highest wonder ever exhibited to the world, to angels, and men, is the Son of God suffering and dying for sinners."
-- John Newton

"You may not understand what is happening to you; it may seem, to you all wrong. Trust yourself to Him. Believe when you cannot prove. Hold on to his constancy, his justice, his eternal purposes for you in Christ. Regard these as absolutes, which can never be shaken, remain steadfast and unshaken, confident that ultimately all will be made plain and all will be well." - Martyn Lloyd-Jones


"The test of suffering reveals whether our "knowing why" is an irreducible bedrock conviction grounded in the revelation of God in Jesus Christ, or whether our faith is resting to any degree on what is not bedrock, but sand."-- Os Guiness

‎"When the winds of suffering blow in our lives, what we need most is something secure to tether ourselves to, something strong and unmovable that will keep us from being swept away in a storm of questions, fear, discouragement, and disillusionment. We have a true "anchor of the soul". "- -Nancy Guthrie


"Trials are like a ire; they burn up nothing but the dross and they make the gold all the purer. Put down the testing process as clear gain, and instead of being sorry about it, count it all joy when ye fall into divers trials, for this bestows upon you a proof of your faith."
-- Charles H. Spurgeon

I cannot recommend this book enough. Even to those who are not experiencing trial or suffering, it is a wonderful reminder of the gospel that we all need reminding of daily. I found myself weary again this morning, after many nights of little to no sleep and the demands of my three crazy boys, and after spending some much needed time with my God, and my "friends" found in this book, I find myself in a place of humble and grateful faith for what the Lord has for me today.

the beach

Ahhh, I miss the beach! Have we really already been home only a week and a half? The sound of the crashing waves seems such a distant memory already! Although this vacation was quite different for us and more difficult than the many years past for many reasons, the beach days could not have been more amazing and memorable. Couple perfect weather, kids who love playing all day, a group of people just happy to be together, and joy from the Lord for the gift each day was... it was a wonderful vacation.

I wanted to take tons of pictures, but when you have a baby who knows no fear, and is crawling headlong into the ocean, stuffing handful after handful of sand in his mouth... and two big boys that want to play hard all day... there was very little sitting down time, and less time to hold a camera and a baby... but oh so worth every moment with my boys. Here are a few shots of those precious memories and sweet beach days...

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We're Back

We just got back Sunday night from a week long family vacation to the Outer Banks.This is the annual Kauflin family vacation that we have been going to as long as we have been married, and for way longer than that for the Kauflins. We got to Corolla NC right after hurricane Earl swept through, to the most perfect weather we have ever had. Everyday was a perfect beach day, which our kids all loved. I will post about the beach soon.

Just wanted to give you all an update on what has been happening with Jack since we have been home from the beach. The day after we came home, Monday, I took him in for a scheduled spinal tap and the nurse and surgeon both agree that his "Tubie" (central line) has an infection, as well as serious cold. As of Monday morning, he did not have a fever and the entry site into his chest looked a little better than it had previously (while on vacation it had begun to get red, swollen and a little pus was coming out). We were able to enjoy the last days of vacation without fever, and kept putting topical antibiotics on his tube, which seemed to help greatly. Although, both the surgeon and the nurse agreed that it looked like the tube had come down and out a little more, and would need to be replaced sooner than later, they did not give me clarity as to the when all of that would be happening.

Since he did have an infection, they would not use his line to give him any more meds, or anesthesia for his spinal tap, but used the gas instead, which freaked him out a little bit. They also had to draw several viles of blood from his ankle, which cause him a good bit of pain during the day. His cold symptoms worsened as the day progressed, and he began having breathing difficulty into the evening. We gave him a nebulizer treatment at home, and have been watching that closely.

Around 5:30 Monday evening, he developed a fever, which went away on its own after half an hour, but by 8:30 his fever was back. It has been quite clear all day that he is not feeling well, he hadn't eaten anything all day, and had been crying and generally upset all day. That evening, yellow pus started coming out of the entry site on his tube/chest again (which also occurred on the last few days we were at the beach). We called the Oncologist at Children's and they told us to come on in to the ER. So Jordan took him to the ER at Shady Grove. Praise the Lord he did not need to be admitted, and was just there to get IV antibiotics. Jordan and Jack got home at 3 am and both collapsed into bed.

Today, Jack had an appointment to get more chemo, which was postponed until Friday, due to the fact that we do not know yet if the infection has migrated up into his tube in his body. He was given a second dose of IV antibiotics, but today he was able to get it in his tube and not in his arm. He will also be on antibiotics for the next 10 days. It looks like he will get a port put in, but if the line is not infected, it will be in two weeks. Not sure exactly what will happen if it is infected. I guess we will cross that road when we get to it.

Little buddy is sleeping now, and Dylan and Tyler are in the capable hands of my mom. It has been a long two days at the clinic for me and the boy. He is such a trooper though, and I could not be more grateful that he is already responding to the antibiotics. The infection already seems to be looking better. SO thank you for your prayers. We are so grateful.