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.one of those days.

Yesterday was one of those days. You know, one of those days where tears seemed to come on their own, unbidden, almost as if out of nowhere. We were in the car driving to Baltimore, to enjoy a family day together at the Maryland Science Center, when it dawned on me that my heart was heavy. As if I was under a cloud. I was just sad. If you know me, heaviness of heart is not something that typically describes me. But it also is certainly something that I have walked through before, and I am sure will feel again. I began telling Jordan that I felt weak in my soul, and then the tears just came. Sometimes the reality that we have no medical guarantee of Jack being cured of his cancer, that there is always a chance that he might relapse, that we will have to go through all this again, that he might need a bone marrow transplant, and there is always the possibility that he might die from this cancer. Sometimes this reality is more than my heart can bear. All of this. The pain, the hurt, the u

.1 year old.

As with all things here, I am really behind in getting this post up! So on the same day that Jack turned 3, Dylan turned 1 year old! Yes, it is true, they have the same birthday! I was induced with both boys, and we figured that having the kids birthdays only a day apart was not as fun... so now we have a big party for both boys. This past year has flown by. Dylan was my biggest baby by far, weighing a whopping 9lbs 2 oz. The labor and delivery were pretty much the same as Jack, and he was instantly dear to my heart. It was amazing to hold this little one, with a head full of dark brown hair, and just love him so completely from the start. As I was gathering pictures from this past year, I was reminded of things that I had already forgotten! Right before Jack was diagnosed with ALL, Dylan was admitted to the hospital for RSV. He also had a serious case of thrush, that lasted a painful 5 months or so. Oh, and I just remembered the cradle cap he had, man did I try everything to g