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In the middle of the night

Psalm 119:148

"My eyes are awake before the watches of the night, that I may meditate on your promise."

As we welcomed our first little one into our lives, we also welcomed a new time of day to our experience. The night watches, as I call them, or any time between 1 am and 4 am, were usually times I liked to find myself sung in bed, sleeping the night away. However, parenthood has changed that completely.

And so, I find myself daily, or nightly, awakened to the cries of Tyler in the night watches. The nights filled with 8 hours of sleep are a distant memory, replaced by the nights when 3 consecutive hours of sleep are a treat!

It has only been one month of this nightly ritual, and yet God has already begun to teach us many things about sacrifice, serving, and the condition of our hearts. Our little baby is crying out for help, and I can be so selfish that I would rather sleep than get out of bed to serve him! How disgusting is the condition of my heart.

What a joy to know that my God is not like me! I am so grateful that the Lord does not just show me my heart and the sin that lies within, but gives me hope to change each day, and renews my strengths for the late hours and early mornings. Indeed, as the Psalmist said in Psalm 119:148, "My eyes are awake before the watches of the night, that I may meditate on your promise." The promises I have been reminded of have sustained me in these night watches. His steadfast love is new every morning, he is the only one who never sleeps, and he is carrying me every moment.

As Tyler nightly awakens our eyes, we pray that our souls be centered on the promises of our God in those night watches. This blog will contain the musings of the sleep deprived, the lessons we learn as first time parents, and the funnier moments we experience with our son. Enjoy

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